6 Months Ago

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Today, January 11, 2015 marks 6 months since my release from a Behavioral Hospital for an attempted suicide. I’m proud to call myself a survivor. For years I’ve suffered from Panic Attacks that would last for up to 20 minutes, feeling so dark and down that I felt cutting my wrists was the only way for me to feel something other than…well….nothing. I felt hallow and empty. Like there was nothing in the world that could save me. Absolutely nothing. I ate maybe 1 meal a day, slept for 12 hours, barely talked to anyone about how I felt inside. Instead I kept it hidden. Kept it inside. I let my Depression get the best of me. I hid behind a bright smile, and sarcastic humor, drowned my feelings in anything I could really get my hands on. I look back on myself back then and I cannot believe that I was so broken. It’s a miracle I was even able to put myself back together. With the help of my family and friends…I’m not completely whole again I admit, but I’m 1 step closer to happiness.

-Jay c:

P.S if you know or feel someone you know is suffering from anxiety or depression, do not let it go. Please help them get help. It really is a terrible and heart wrenching disease to get through, and they can’t do it alone.



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