So I just got into an argument with my mother and I need a place to vent. So I decided to make this a my fucked up family #honestyhour. So here’s what originally happened: She thinks I was disrespectful because I told her to wait until I got up to take her to the store (Its fucking 10 in the morning.) because her license is suspended, and I have a clean record. She didn’t take that too lightly. Well im sorry I’m not your personal fucking driver! I am not available to you at a moments notice okay! I am tired! Let me fucking sleep! No one told you to rack up tickets like it was your job! So don’t be pissed off at me for your dumbass mistakes! Another thing is when we’re talking and all she seems to talk about is herself! I understand you’re pissed off because of some stupid bitch at work, but that doesn’t mean I want to hear about it for the next week! Tell me once and leave it at that! Something else that pisses me off is my brother. He literally punched a hole through the wall causing about 150 bucks worth of damage we can’t afford, but because he’s the golden boy in the house he gets off Scott free and a new cell phone under my name nonetheless. Seriously if I did that, I would be kicked out of the house! My parents would make me pay for the damage! Look, I’m sorry I’m the house failure because I’m 19 and I live at home, or I barely graduated high school, I’m sorry I’m not going to a toped ranked University with an athletic scholarship like my brother, I’m in a community college, I’m sorry im not a fucking talented athlete like both of my brothers or a choir or art god like my sister, I got stuck with the nerdiness, I’m sorry I didn’t continue to wrestle in high school, I stopped to work to help pay bills and join Academic Decathlon, I’m sorry I have big dreams of becoming a writer one day, and not a fucking biologist, or a doctor like my sister, or a detective like my youngest brother, I’m sorry I don’t fit in your jigsaw puzzle of the ‘Perfect Family’, I’m sorry I couldn’t do more to make you proud, but please! Do not tell me I’ve never tried, please do not tell me I’m selfish! I do everything I can for this damn family! I’ve always put everyone else over my needs! I mean I bought my own shoes and clothes for my senior year with the little money I made working at taco bell after I gave you most of my school clothes money to pay the electric bill and so you would have more money to buy my siblings clothes. I have given, and given, and given, but I can only give so much. Its about time I start thinking of myself.
P.S. Yes im angry and crying it sucks, but I never get my emotions out, this was the only way I felt I could without being judged.